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I am so confuse!

I am confuse because of the courses I will take. I really don't know what to take up in college. My family says Architecture, Nursing, Pharmacy... but I don't know what to choose, not because I don't like the courses but it's the fact that I don't know what I like. I want to be an architect because it is my heart-breaking dream. I also want to be a nurse because of its some advantages to me.

Another reason why I am confuse is the school I will enter. I took up an examination UP and UST. I didn't pass in UP but I am a waiting-list in UST and I really hope there will be a slot for me:D

I really want to be in UST but my family don't want me there because it's far from our house. They are convincing me to enter a school near our home but I don't like it because they don't have the name and the quality I am looking for:D

I really don't know what to do. I will just pray that everything will be in its own respective place:)

Before, I noticed that my toe has a bulky something but I ignore it because I thought that it was just a cause of my new shoes. Later, it got hurts so badly and my mama J. said that it was ingrown. At house, she partly removed my ingrown. I thought my toe will be okay but unfortunately, it wasn't and it's still hurting so we decided to go into a salon where manicurists and pedicurists are experts. When we were on the salon, the pedicurist removed my ingrown and it bled:| I was so shocked when I saw the blood coming out from where my ingrown is removed. I was like shaking because it's my first time! but now it's okay. It still hurts but not that as before. I will really clean my nails always and always. I will also remove all my ingrown or possibly become an ingrown thingy on my toes.

Look at that dirty feet>:| haha, This is after my vintage photo shoot.

Sorry for the photo if it's too revealing. I blurred it.

So, that's my toe. *sigh* I will really keep myself clean ALWAYS. I don't want to have this again. I swear!

We had our Creative Shot last January 22,2011 and we need to have a vintage outfit. First, I went to Salon not to fix my hair or face but to fix my nails.

Maygah, Sorry for my dirty feet.
Let me explain:p, I just shot it AFTER our photoshoot
that's why it's not clean anymore

One hand:D

So, I got my pedicure and manicure. My ingrown hurts(another story for that later) that's why I have band aid on one of my feet. My nail polish is just colorless but it's really shiny. I am not fund of using shiny colorless nail polish but now, I'm loving it.

My out-of-nowhere dress.

So that's my so-called vintage outfit. Actually it's not a whole or should I say Full Dress. The pearls are the one I made(see here:D) and the ribbon in it is the clip my classmate gave and the ribbon clip that Red Ribbon wear(see here:D).

My annoying and wasted self:(

I am such a crying lady. I embarrass myself because of crying stupidly. I really hate crying in front of those people who always sees me smiling and laughing. I just feel so STUPID. Yes, crying can express what I feel but sometimes, I just cry for just an stupid reason!

Like what happened this day...

I got home from school a little bit upset because our door was locked and I really hate it. I went up to my room and will get the shirt I cut yesterday. I know where did I put it but when I was looking it in there it was gone. I was like super duper annoyed because when I am in school the only thing I have in my mind is to make that shirt!!!! and when I got home I don't where it is. I cried because I am so upset.

After a minute, Mama J. saw it and gave it to me but I unlocked my door because I don't want her to see me crying because of that simple shirt I am happy with:(

I slept for 4 hours!

They knocked my door but I didn't open it intendedly because I was ashamed. Mama J. opened it using a key and she was talking to me but I just somehow ignore her because I was really ashamed of what I did.

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I just feel so so so so so super sad and wasted today. I feel like I make them so disappointed for the little things which made me cry:(( I just don't know that I will cry hard because I am upset. I really hate myself. I should die:(

I am not really fund of having stuff toys. I have many stuff toys way back in Isabela but I just displayed some of them in our cabinet. I am REALLY super practical person. I want my gifts to be so useful to me and I can wear or even use it in the future.

Hello meet my stuff-bear. It was a gift to me by my friend, Martha. So cute, I named her, RED RIBBON because my classmate added a red ribbon on her neck. :P(nonsense?)