Crying...

I am such a crying lady. I embarrass myself because of crying stupidly. I really hate crying in front of those people who always sees me smiling and laughing. I just feel so STUPID. Yes, crying can express what I feel but sometimes, I just cry for just an stupid reason! 

Like what happened this day...

I got home from school a little bit upset because our door was locked and I really hate it. I went up to my room and will get the shirt I cut yesterday. I know where did I put it but when I was looking it in there it was gone. I was like super duper annoyed because when I am in school the only thing I have in my mind is to make that shirt!!!! and when I got home I don't where it is. I cried because I am so upset.

After a minute, Mama J. saw it and gave it to me but I unlocked my door because I don't want her to see me crying because of that simple shirt I am happy with:(

I slept for 4 hours!

They knocked my door but I didn't open it intendedly because I was ashamed. Mama J. opened it using a key and she was talking to me but I just somehow ignore her because I was really ashamed of what I did.

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I just feel so so so so so super sad and wasted today. I feel like I make them so disappointed for the little things which made me cry:(( I just don't know that I will cry hard because I am upset. I really hate myself. I should die:(