A fuse of college confusion

I am so confuse!

I am confuse because of the courses I will take. I really don't know what to take up in college. My family says Architecture, Nursing, Pharmacy... but I don't know what to choose, not because I don't like the courses but it's the fact that I don't know what I like. I want to be an architect because it is my heart-breaking dream. I also want to be a nurse because of its some advantages to me.

Another reason why I am confuse is the school I will enter. I took up an examination UP and UST. I didn't pass in UP but I am a waiting-list in UST and I really hope there will be a slot for me:D

I really want to be in UST but my family don't want me there because it's far from our house. They are convincing me to enter a school near our home but I don't like it because they don't have the name and the quality I am looking for:D

I really don't know what to do. I will just pray that everything will be in its own respective place:)


My first-ever Ingrown

Before, I noticed that my toe has a bulky something but I ignore it because I thought that it was just a cause of my new shoes. Later, it got hurts so badly and my mama J. said that it was ingrown. At house, she partly removed my ingrown. I thought my toe will be okay but unfortunately, it wasn't and it's still hurting so we decided to go into a salon where manicurists and pedicurists are experts. When we were on the salon, the pedicurist removed my ingrown and it  bled:| I was so shocked when I saw the blood coming out from where my ingrown is removed. I was like shaking because it's my first time! but now it's okay. It still hurts but not that as before. I will really clean my nails always and always. I will also remove all my ingrown or possibly become an ingrown thingy on my toes. 

 Look at that dirty feet>:| haha, This is after my vintage photo shoot. 
Sorry for the photo if it's too revealing. I blurred it.
So, that's my toe. *sigh* I will really keep myself clean ALWAYS. I don't want to have this again. I swear!


Creative Vintage shoot

We had our Creative Shot last January 22,2011 and we need to have a vintage outfit. First, I went to Salon not to fix my hair or face but to fix my nails.
Maygah, Sorry for my dirty feet.
Let me explain:p, I just shot it AFTER our photoshoot
that's why it's not clean anymore

One hand:D
So, I got my pedicure and manicure. My ingrown hurts(another story for that later) that's why I have band aid on one of my feet. My nail polish is just colorless but it's really shiny. I am not fund of using shiny colorless nail polish but now, I'm loving it.

My out-of-nowhere dress.
So that's my so-called vintage outfit. Actually it's not a whole or should I say Full Dress. The pearls are the one I made(see here:D) and the ribbon in it is the clip my classmate gave and the ribbon clip that Red Ribbon wear(see here:D).


I really hate myself

My annoying and wasted self:(



I am such a crying lady. I embarrass myself because of crying stupidly. I really hate crying in front of those people who always sees me smiling and laughing. I just feel so STUPID. Yes, crying can express what I feel but sometimes, I just cry for just an stupid reason! 

Like what happened this day...

I got home from school a little bit upset because our door was locked and I really hate it. I went up to my room and will get the shirt I cut yesterday. I know where did I put it but when I was looking it in there it was gone. I was like super duper annoyed because when I am in school the only thing I have in my mind is to make that shirt!!!! and when I got home I don't where it is. I cried because I am so upset.

After a minute, Mama J. saw it and gave it to me but I unlocked my door because I don't want her to see me crying because of that simple shirt I am happy with:(

I slept for 4 hours!

They knocked my door but I didn't open it intendedly because I was ashamed. Mama J. opened it using a key and she was talking to me but I just somehow ignore her because I was really ashamed of what I did.


I just feel so so so so so super sad and wasted today. I feel like I make them so disappointed for the little things which made me cry:(( I just don't know that I will cry hard because I am upset. I really hate myself. I should die:(



I am not really fund of having stuff toys. I have many stuff toys way back in Isabela but I just displayed some of them in our cabinet. I am REALLY super practical person. I want my gifts to be so useful to me and I can wear or even use it in the future.

Hello meet my stuff-bear. It was a gift to me by my friend, Martha. So cute, I named her, RED RIBBON because my classmate added a red ribbon on her neck. :P(nonsense?)

I really love this shot! super !

Another oh-so-lovely shot! Now, with Ribbon clip:P


Oh I know, she's cute:p haha! I really love her so much!


Pink and Pearls

I am bored yesterday so I decided to take some pictures of mine. I wear the top that my grandma gave(i loveit so much!) and the pearls I made:D


Gives you hell>:)

Long time no update, Monsterfloat. Sorry, I am so busy these days. So, I changed my music haha.Actually, I change it last week:D Yea, it was old but it's really great. I gave my own definition about the song especially the chorus part. When you see my face hope it gives you hell,  for me it's like.. If you hate me go with the flow of my face. Get it? People don't care about the things I WANT  to do, okay? Idgaf. Really? Things will just be complicated if they make an issue about the people around them. right? 


I am not born in this world just to please you. okay? deal with my face. DEAL WITH ME. 

haha.. I just really love that song:D



When I was customizing my tumblr pages I saw this article of mine long time ago! haha.. This article is so lame and dull. I just posted here because of the fact that even though I really not felt falling in-love I already have the knowledge through gossips and others experiences.:D

All about crushes=‘>

< I know most of those who will read this are girls:]>

What does CRUSH really means? Is it love? Affection? Or just simply admiring someone? According to MWWP dictionary Crush means short-lived love: a temporary romantic attraction, especially in teenagers and young people.

“ Short-lived love” which means it does not last for so long or it does not take over a year. Me too have crushes especially on TV personalities but somehow they do not last for so long it just take months or even just weeks.

Crush is not love. Crush is just only a venerate feeling of somebody to another or just simple idolizing somebody for many reasons <example the way he/she acts, moves, dances, sings or his/her eyes, lips, face, etc.>

Here’s some friend I know who had a CRUSH on a guy but it lasted just a few months because the girl’s feeling of admiring the guy faded away< in tagalog, bigla na lang nawala> and me, as an example, I had a crush on one of the TV personalities, I always watched his teleserye, his guesstings even his movie but it lasted for a short-time because I do not adore his good-looking charm anymore< in tagalog again, nagsawa na!> so that’s what crush is.

Yes, at first you feel your heart dreadfully beating because you admire or are attract to his/her physical appearance but after a short-time you can’t feel anything with him/her. Admiring is also a means of crush. Example, you have a crush on a guy because you admire/adore/idolize his eyes.

Here’s some conclusion of differences between love and crush but we will first describe what is LOVE<very strong affection: an intense feeling of tender affection and compassion> as the description explain;

(1)love is a very strong affection to someone while in crush, yes, you feel affectionate to someone but it is not hard as love, it does not have a foundation to last eternity < sosyal” last eternity”>
(2) If you really love a person you will look outside and inside of him/her but if you just have a simple crush on someone you are just looking on his/her physical appearance although you can also admire his/her attitude but often times we have a crush on somebody because of his/her physical attraction .
 (3)Love is an affection or passion of two people while crush is just simply adoring about what you are attracted to.
(4) Crush is sometimes an imaginary feeling< based on the ones’ I know and also my experiences> on the one you are attracted to because it last for just a few time while love is a feeling of gratitude to somebody which if you really love a person for how he/she is it can last a long time.
(5) Crush is just a temporary attraction or just a short-term reaction to somebody while love is continuing feeling to somebody.

So that’s what I concluded:] < all I wrote on my conclusion are all on my bases, my points and opinions> even though how many explanation are given to the word “CRUSH” it’s just merely a feeling of attraction which lasted for just an interim time.

Here’s a fact which I know somebody who really experience it, first thing you will have a crush on somebody so you will go closer to him/her< closer means become friends or anything like that>, next, you will become friends then good friends then close friends then it will become BFF when you two really know each other the boy or even the girl will show affection< just a light affection> then there will come the courtship of course next is LOVE. See, crush and love really got a distance to each other. Again, I will remind you that Crush is just an attraction of infatuation to somebody.

<<thanks for reading this guys. Hope you had fun while reading this. If you have questions or some suggestions you want me to write about just comment here or go to my cbox:D>>  



Marry your daughter-Mcknight/unknown

Aw. This song makes my heart melt every time I hear it:D I don't know why maybe I am just 'kinikilig' because of the message of it.haha. 

Last 2 months, my classmate told me to search this but I was so lazy and not-so-interested in searching for it but snap!!! When I hear it in my facebook..I was like,'aaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwww!!'   haha..

McKnight – Marry Your Daughter Lyrics
Sir, I’m a bit nervous
‘Bout being here today
Still not real sure what I’m going to say
So bare with me please
If I take up too much of your time,
See in this box is a ring for your oldest
Shes my everything and all that I know is
It would be such a relief if I knew that we were on the same side
Very soon I’m hoping that I..

Can marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me ’till the day that I die, yeah
I’m gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She’ll be the most beautiful bride that I’ve ever seen
Can’t wait to smile
When she walks down the isle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

She’s been hearing for steps
Since the day that we met (I’m scared to death to think of what would happen if she ever left)
So don’t you ever worry about me ever treating her bad
I’ve got most of my vows done so far (So bring on the better or worse)
And tell death do us part
There’s no doubt in my mind
It’s time
I’m ready to start
I swear to you with all of my heart..

I’m gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me ’till the day that I die, yeah
I’m gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She’ll be the most beautiful bride that I’ve ever seen
I can’t wait to smile
As she walks down the isle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

The first time I saw her
I swear I knew that I say I do
I’m gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me ’till the day that I die
I’m gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She’ll be the most beautiful bride that I’ve ever seen
I can’t wait to smile
As she walks down the isle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter



from weheartit

“Minahal kita,minamahal kita at mamahalin kita habang buhay kahit na minsan at hindi mo ako pinapansin.”
Isheshare ko lang ah.
Dati kapag may hihilingin ako sa Diyos may sinasabi akong kapalit. Example, hihilingin ko sa kanya na bigyan ako ng cellphone at pagnabigay yun ay lagi na akong magsisimba. pero hindi ko naman natutupad:(
Kaya minsan nahihiya na rin akong humiling pa sa Kanya at mangako ng hindi ko naman na tutupad kasi SUPER DUPER NAKAKAHIYA IYON.
Mangangako ako kay LORD tapos hindi ko tutuparin..Nakakahiya super! alam kong hindi niyo siguro gets yung sinasabi kong nakakahiya kaya naman ieelaborate ko pa.
Nangangako ako kay LORD(Take note: LORD, Diyos at hari ng lahat) tapos hindi ko tutuparin. Parang isang maliit lang ako na basahan sa kanyang harapan eh. Isipin niyo nangako ako nang kung ano-ano sa kanya para lang tuparin ang hinihilinh ko tapos hindi ko tinupad yung pangako ko. NAKAKAHIYA AKO! Nangako ako sa ISANG DIYOS!!! tapos…tsk.tsk.tsk.
Masakit isipin kapag naaalala ko yung mga bagay na ganoon kaya naman hindi ko na lang dinadamdam at ginagawa ko na lang iyon na stepping stones sa aking buhay.
Haaayyy, alam kong hindi ako perpekto pero may utak ako at konsensya kaya naman nahihiya ako:(
PERO…kahit na ganun ang ginagawa ko ni minsan hindi niya ako tinalikuran ni minsan hindi niya ako iniwan. HINDING-HINDI!
Kahit na nakakalimutan ko siya..HINDI NIYA AKO NAKAKALIMUTAN:))kaya naman laking pasasalamat ko sa kanya dahil kapag nararamdaman ko na walang nagmamahal sa akin Siya lang ang lagi kong iniisip.Naiisip ko na,’AY HINDI MAY NAGMAMAHAL PALA SA AKIN..ang Diyos’
Higit na mas malaki ang pagmamahal sa akin ng Diyos kaysa sa milyong-milyong nagmamahal sa akin..:DDD
/nagpapalakas kay Lord. pero mahal ko talaga siya forever and ever AMEN!


New year:D

Our New year celebration.So sad because my Mamay was not here but still, happy because I spent my New year with my Mama J. Medya Noche! :D Unfortunately, I had 'kabag' that night so I didn't eat much foods:\

We love Broccoli!:p
In that picture, we had pork shanghai,ham,spicy chicken and lechon kawali:D

The foods:
1.) Jamaican Pansit(At the left corner)
2.) The round fruits
3.) Buko Salad(gave by our neighbor)
3.)Chow-fan rice:)))
4.) Leche Flan
5.) The plate with many viadssss

I really love the Chow-fan rice:D yumm!
I ate a ham of course with broccoli on top

Then after we eat, we watched the fireworks..We didn't have fireworks or simple as lusis but anyways, I love our neighbors fireworks
Sorry for the amateur photo
Then after we watched the fireworks of course we had some photo shoot:D
sorry for the face:D

Ahihi.. We took a lot of pictures but only 3 of them got uploaded.